Lost My Heart in the Roleplay Closet

I'm a first-year law student and I've been struggling to fit into my new life here. The transition from home was hard, especially with everything feeling so different. One night, after too much wine, I found myself crying alone in my room. It's embarrassing to admit, but it felt like there was no one who understood what I was going through, or maybe I just needed someone else entirely. That's when I started exploring online DDLG communities. There’s this older guy I've been talking to for a few weeks now; he understands the law student life better than my peers do. One night, we decided to meet in person at his place and play out one of our fantasies. It was... intense. The way he took care of me, even with just a roleplay, it was like coming home after being away too long. Afterward, I found myself questioning everything, why does this feel so right? Is it because I needed someone to take charge and show me what’s next in life, or is there something deeper going on here? The truth is, I'm still figuring that out. All I know for sure is that I'm not as independent as I've been pretending.