Just Figuring It Out...

So I guess this is my first time here... I'm in my fifties now and just got into DDLG a few months back. It's not like anything from before, you know? It started as this roleplay online... My partner, he's about ten years younger than me, but we communicate so well. We talk about rules, punishments, and rewards all the time. He can be quite strict with me sometimes... I have to sit in a corner if I forget something important or don't complete my tasks properly. It’s kinda humiliating, but it turns me on big-time... Last night, he gave me a spanking for being too talkative during our designated quiet time. The sound of the slaps and his stern voice were so intense... Afterwards, we cuddled, and I felt better somehow. It's like getting back to that childhood feeling of needing guidance but also wanting love and acceptance. Quite an experience really... I'm still trying to figure out how to balance it all without losing myself in the process though...