Just Thinking Aloud Today

So uh, I'm this trans guy in my twenties and yeah, pretty sure it's all okay to talk about here. So like, sometimes I get into a mood where I just wanna be little or something, you know? Other times though, I really feel the pull of being kind of...a caregiver, if that makes sense. Like, taking care of someone else in those moments can be so fulfilling and fun. Today was one of those days where both parts were there, but it got kinda confusing as to which role I wanted more. One minute I'm all about playing a little space thing with my partner, you know, the whole playful, cute, and just following orders kind of vibe. Next thing you know, we switch things around and suddenly I’m the one being supportive and guiding them through their little moments. I dunno if it’s normal to feel like this sometimes. Maybe I should just stick to one role? But honestly, part of me thinks that's boring. There's something special about feeling both sides of a relationship like this. Anyway, hope you all are having good days! Do any of you ever get mixed feelings like this? What do you think I should do?