The Big Secret I Keep from My Dom

I'm 28 and have been into DDLG for a few years now. Everything about it is consensual - we talk about my limits, set strict boundaries, but there's one thing I keep secret that gives me such mixed feelings of shame and excitement... It all started when I got this new collar from him - a beautiful leather piece with his initials engraved on the back. He made me wear it to bed last night, telling me how much he trusted me, how important I was to him. But then, as we lay there in our little nest of blankets and pillows, something unexpected happened. I couldn't resist... I took off my collar, hiding it under my pillow. The moment felt wrong but thrilling at the same time - sneaking around like this made everything feel more illicit, dangerous even. When he woke up to find it gone, his eyes widened in surprise but there was no anger or disappointment; instead, a spark of something else... He asked me where I had put it and when I confessed, there was a slight pause before he leaned over, pulling me close into a kiss that felt like permission. And now, here we are - this small act of rebellion keeps me feeling naughty but also closer to him in some strange way. I'm so conflicted about it, but it feels right somehow.