Coming To Terms With My Secret Kink

I've been keeping this secret for far too long, and it's starting to weigh heavily on me. I recently discovered that I have a deep-seated attraction towards DDLG dynamics, something that feels both liberating and terrifying at the same time. It was only when I found myself roleplaying with my partner in this way that I realized how much comfort and joy it brings me. The idea of being cared for like a little girl again, despite knowing full well that we're both adults, is so compelling. But every time I step into that space, a part of me feels like an impostor, like I'm betraying some deep-seated beliefs about what it means to be grown up and self-reliant. Yet here I am, 35 years old, craving the guidance and protection of being treated as if I were much younger. It's confusing and lonely, but also oddly comforting in a way that nothing else has ever been.