..Mixed Feelings in the Submissive Role..

I've been married for twenty years now, but recently I started playing with an online Dom who helps me explore my submissive side. It's been a way to reconnect with myself and perhaps relive some of the excitement that comes from feeling completely vulnerable... In our sessions, he takes control over me in ways that feel both scary and exhilarating. My husband is supportive, but he doesn't understand this part of me.... During one session last week, we crossed into territory that felt incredibly raw, something deep within me broke free, leaving me trembling with a mix of fear and elation... It's hard to explain, even to myself. I feel torn between my marriage and this new world where I'm not just submissive but fully open to whatever the Dom wants. It's confusing because while part of me feels like I'm betraying my vows, another part feels reborn with each moment under his guidance....