trying to understand myself

so i recently got into this whole daddying thing and its kinda blowing my mind. i mean, i love being strong and protective for someone who looks up to me but it also feels weird sometimes. like why do i get off on the power dynamic so much? is it just that i’ve always been a leader type of guy or does it have deeper roots in my own childhood stuff? trying not to think too hard about that though cus its complicated. at least for now im just enjoying taking care of someone who needs me and giving them discipline when they act out. feels good to be in charge but also kinda scary how much i’m starting to like it