Just Experimenting?

I recently got divorced and have been exploring kink as a way to reconnect with myself. Lately, I’ve found myself enjoying playful but intense scenarios where I’m submissive in ways that challenge me mentally more than physically. It feels strange yet oddly liberating, like finally speaking the unsaid words I had for my ex-husband all those years. Am I just playing out old relationship patterns, or is there something deeper here? Is it common to find solace and understanding through such unconventional means?