new realizations

just figured out i have this weird thing for spanking when im roleplaying as a sub. its so strange cuz ive always been super professional, but lately these fantasies have crept in and its like my brain cant stop thinking about it. its just hitting me how turned on i get when someone calls me sir or acts like im the one in charge during this stuff. i mean, i know consensual roleplay is a thing, but never thought it would be for me. now im wondering if its cuz im trying to find my own power or if im just curious about that kind of control. not sure where its coming from, just feeling kinda shocked and turned on all at once.