Confession of a Newbie

I recently started exploring Dominance and Submission, feeling lost yet oddly drawn to it. Tonight was my first real session with an experienced Domme who brought me into her little-space world. She took care of everything, the blindfold, the soft lullabies, making me call her 'Mommy' as if I were a child again. It felt both terrifying and comforting in ways I didn't expect. Afterward, though, sitting alone in my apartment, there's this loneliness that creeps in. Do others feel this way too? How do you find the balance between feeling connected yet maintaining your own identity in such intense roleplay dynamics?