Trying Something New

I started working at a busy retail store just last month and found myself drawn to a customer who comes in almost daily. She's beautiful, sophisticated, she makes me feel like I'm back in high school again, wanting to impress her but knowing it's wrong. We've exchanged smiles and polite small talk, nothing more. But today she left behind her shopping bag on one of our tables, and I swear my heart nearly stopped when I saw the receipt inside, it was for a toy, not just any toy, but a rather adult-oriented one. I'm confused. Part of me feels like this is all in my head, that it's nothing more than wishful thinking and the heat of wanting to be closer to her. Another part...another part wonders if she might feel the same way about me, just beneath the surface where we both can't admit it yet. I've never felt so out of control before. Should I just keep pretending everything is normal? Or am I allowed to try something new and see if there's more to this than meets the eye?