Hidden Desires Revealed

I never thought I'd admit this to myself, let alone write it out. But here goes... Last night, after we finished making love and were cuddled up in bed, a secret longing bubbled up inside me for the first time. I found myself wanting to be submissive, not just emotionally, but physically too. I wanted him to tell me what to do, maybe even spank me, or tie my hands behind my back while he takes control. It's been so long since we've explored anything new like this. When did my mind start going down such a dark path? Maybe it's the stress of work, or just that I need something more from him... I don't know. All I know is that every time I close my eyes, I see myself bending over the bed waiting for his hand on my ass. It feels wrong but so right at the same time. What if he rejects this part of me? Am I ready to face the truth of what turns me on now? He's never been into anything like that before, or has he? So confused...