Understanding My Kinks

I've been married for five years now and we have two beautiful kids. I'm mostly home with them during the day while my husband works. Lately, I’ve found myself getting turned on by something unexpected: age-play where I adopt a little girl persona, sometimes in the context of DDLG dynamics. It started subtly when I would roleplay as this younger self who’s learning and exploring everything anew, but it has evolved into more explicit scenarios with my husband. We've discussed our limits thoroughly, there's no pretending any actual age, just playing within an adult framework that feels both safe and thrilling. Physically, we explore a lot of touch that feels innocent yet intimate: tickling games that escalate into petting sessions, light spanking that turns quickly to foreplay, and wearing clothes that make me feel smaller or more childish. It’s odd how this helps me feel closer to my husband while also allowing him to take on the role of care-giver in a way that feels nurturing yet naughty. I’m still trying to understand why these fantasies and actions resonate so strongly with me, perhaps it's about reclaiming innocence after years of responsibility, or maybe it’s simply an outlet for expressing playful desires alongside more serious aspects of adult life.