small slip

i feel like a kid sometimes when i dont follow the rules. last night, i was supposed to clean up my study but got distracted by an old project and ended up staying way too late trying to finish it. its silly how much guilt i can still feel for something so small. i know deep down its about more than just not cleaning. im always wrestling with this urge to regress or take on a more protective caregiver role in different scenarios, even if they have nothing to do with actual rules. these little moments when i slip up remind me of my inner conflict and why i explore those dynamics with partners sometimes.