just been thinking

i just ended things with my long-term partner last week and i guess im still figuring out how to be single again. we were together for a while so its weird now without her around all the time. one night i was feeling kinda down, missed having someone to talk to or cuddle with, so i called up this friend from college who knows about my kink stuff but never got into it much herself. thought maybe just chatting and reminiscing would help. turns out she had some new toys and wanted to play. we agreed on a video call and i watched her in the webcam while she teased herself with a feather tickler and butt plug, me watching was so hot seeing how turned on she got playing alone like that. made me think about what kinds of stuff might be possible if i started dating kinky people again. not sure yet but it felt nice to have someone pay attention to my turn-ons for once.