A Lonely Heart's Secret Desire

I'm a college student, navigating the complexities of adulthood while still feeling like there’s so much I don't understand about life and relationships. Recently, my curiosity has led me down some unexpected paths, paths that involve exploring kink with a partner who is equally interested but keeps things vague and undefined. We've talked about wanting to take our connection deeper, yet each time we come close to crossing a line, something holds us back. I find myself wondering if this perpetual state of anticipation and unfulfillment is normal. Should I push harder for what we both desire or should I let go and look elsewhere? It's hard to know the right path when every step seems riddled with uncertainty.