feeling like crap about one little thing

so i started this dd/lg thing kinda late but really wanted to explore it. been going great for me emotionally but still figuring out some of the kinks with actually following through on stuff when its not fun or easy. like last week my dad asked me to clean up the attic and i just... couldn't do it. thought about it all day long and kept putting it off. felt really bad about that cos i know he was counting on me doing it and it wasn’t a huge deal, just a chore. i mean it would only take 20 mins at most but my mind was just like “no” over and over again. ended up texting him saying sorry and that i’d get to it tomorrow which is kinda lame cos now its still not done and hes gonna think i dont care or something. been ruminating on this all week, keeps popping into my head when i least expect it. feels weird because its such a small thing but breaking a rule i made with myself about being more obedient sucks.