A Little Mistake That Feels Big

I've only just admitted to myself that I've been enjoying this DDLG dynamic lately. It's still so new and scary to think about telling anyone else, but the way it makes me feel when my partner is in charge...it's like nothing else. Today though, there was something small that really weighed on me emotionally. It wasn't anything major, just a little rule I broke, but for some reason, knowing I disappointed him felt huge. We agreed that I would spend time studying today instead of scrolling through social media. But about halfway through the day, I got distracted by a post and ended up browsing aimlessly for hours. When he checked in on me later, there was this look in his eye, I could tell right away what had happened. Even though it's just a simple agreement we made, the guilt of letting him down feels like a big deal now that I'm fully embracing this headspace.