Why Do I Enjoy It?

I'm in my late 20s and have recently started to explore a DDLG dynamic with someone I deeply care about. We've been together for two years now, but our relationship took an interesting turn when we both felt comfortable enough to delve into the Daddy/kitten dynamic during one of our conversations. The thought of being in charge, guiding her through life's challenges while she embraces her kitten persona, initially seemed foreign and even a bit daunting. Yet, as I started playing this role, it became oddly liberating. The responsibility is intense, but there’s an underlying sense of protection and nurturing that I hadn’t experienced before. Our sessions start with a call where we discuss the day's plan in her kitten persona. It’s like preparing for any other date or hangout, except we're playing our adult roles within this dynamic. Sometimes it involves her wearing her beloved kitty outfit, which adds an undeniable playful element to things that otherwise might be mundane. One of the most intriguing aspects is how she relies on me as a Daddy to set boundaries and provide guidance in tricky situations. There's something about being the one who gives advice and sets rules that makes me feel grounded, almost like I'm living out some unspoken desire for stability and control that I never knew was there. But why am I drawn to this so much? Is it a need for dominance or simply a way of channeling my protective instincts? It's challenging because while I find the dynamic fulfilling in many ways, there’s also the nagging thought about whether this is an unhealthy obsession with power. Yet, seeing her grow and thrive within these boundaries we've set feels like a genuine expression of our mutual affection. So here's where I am: exploring something deeply personal that brings joy and connection to my relationship but keeps me questioning what it all means on a deeper psychological level.