My Secret Coffee Ritual with Ethan

I've been working as a barista for about three years now. It's always been my job to take care of people and make their day better, but there was this one customer who made me question everything. His name is Ethan, he comes in almost every morning for his iced coffee and bagel. At first, it felt like any other interaction at the shop. But as time passed, I noticed him staring at me with a kind of intensity that made my heart race. He would wait until everyone else was done ordering before coming to the counter, giving us this private moment. One day, he left his phone behind and called me over to get it back. We were alone in the shop for a few minutes. I remember him asking if I'd like to go out for drinks after work that week, but something held me back from saying yes. Instead of answering right away, we ended up talking about our day-to-day lives and how much we enjoyed taking care of each other. That's when things changed. He started calling me 'Little' when he came in. At first it felt weird, like I was back in some kind of school or dorm setting, but then he kissed my cheek softly after ordering his usual drink. It sent shivers down my spine and made me feel like the air had been knocked out of me. We haven't gone on any dates since that day, instead we have these rituals at work where I'll get him a special treat or write little notes about how he's taken care of me. He calls it 'my reward'. It’s strange because I'm not sure if I should think of Ethan as my bossy Daddy figure or just an admirer. But here's the thing: when we're together like this, there's no place in the world where I'd rather be. We've talked about being careful with each other and how these dynamics work between two consenting adults who choose to indulge in role-play. The physical intimacy has escalated too, there have been a few occasions behind closed doors that felt so right and wrong at once. Is this fair? Do I deserve more than coffee shop interactions? Part of me wonders if I'm just using him as an escape from reality, but another part knows how good it feels to be cared for by someone who understands the power dynamics we've created together. It's confusing, thrilling, and deeply intimate all at once.