hidden truth

i work at a big box store and have always felt like i was living two totally different lives. just recently though, while out shopping for something random late one night, i found myself getting really turned on by this idea of being disciplined. weird right? it started with imagining how awesome it would be to have someone tell me what to do or even punish me in a way that made my heart race and my body tingle. it’s like all the normal stuff just isn’t enough anymore. i know it’s not something most people think about, but there’s this part of me that craves being put in my place... kind of weird since i’m usually the bossy one at work with customers. now here's the thing, i haven't shared any of this with anyone yet and i barely even understand why i feel this way. it just happened recently, almost out of nowhere. i don’t know if i can ever tell my partner or not...