just figuring things out i guess

i was sitting in my dorm room late one night thinking about all the stuff going on in my life when suddenly i started feeling really small and helpless. like a little kid again. it was weird but kinda nice too... there's this guy in my dorm who is way older than me and we sometimes have sex... but that night... i dunno... i wanted him to take care of me instead, you know? be all strict and stern but also super sweet at the same time... like a dad or something. he understood and... well it was kinda embarrassing cuz i'd never felt this way before but also amazing because i could just let go and stop thinking so much for once... after we did our thing he tucked me in bed with a stuffed animal and read me a story....