A Barista's Secret Sin

I'm a barista at this local coffee shop and I never would've imagined myself in this situation. I've always felt like the strong one, the person who could handle anything that came my way. But recently, I found myself drawn to something entirely different, a need for guidance, control, and discipline from someone else. It started as a casual interest online, just browsing and reading others' stories. Then it became more intense, leading me to seek out an experienced Daddy figure in real life who could be there for me when I needed it most. I felt so ashamed admitting this even to myself; how did the strong barista turn into someone longing for a Daddy? It's embarrassing and scary at the same time. But once we started, everything was consensual, explicit, and clear, rules were set, boundaries understood, and somehow I found peace in that structure. Can anyone else relate? Is this something common among adults, or am I truly alone with these desires?