feeling lost in law school and kink space

so i started law school last year and its been pretty rough emotionally. like the workload is insane but that's not really it, its more about feeling like im not fitting into my kinky community anymore. before i was always this little girl who loved being taken care of by older men in a mentoring role kinda way but now i find myself wanting to be both a little and the caregiver sometimes. its confusing. i recently met up with an older guy online who's like one of my first ever doms from years back, and he remembered me as this wide-eyed submissive girl, but now im not sure how to act around him anymore. i told him about how im feeling conflicted and hes being really supportive but also kinda pushing me to explore these new sides of myself. its making me feel like a real mess though. so we ended up meeting at a cafe one day and just talking, figuring things out together. he reminded me that it was okay not to be the same person i used to be, that everyone changes over time especially in kink scenes as you discover new things about yourself. but being reminded of how much ive changed is making me feel really lost right now. i guess this confession isnt asking for anything specific, just venting out my thoughts and emotions here honestly. im struggling with identity, feeling like an imposter in two spaces i used to be so comfortable in - law school and my kink community. anyone who feels the same is welcome to reply if they want. im just tired of carrying this all inside.