my big secret from college

i was this mom type already in my early 20s, i mean i had a natural thing for caring and nurturing and kinda looked out for people more than most. one day we were playing a game on campus where you have to pretend to be someone else and act it out really hard. so i ended up being a mommy figure to this guy who was like 20 too but he got into roleplaying as if he was my little kid and i loved it, it felt right in a way i never expected. we had been friends for a while before that but then once the game was over...i dunno he just wanted to keep going with the mommy thing off campus. at first i was like no way but something about him made me want to be his mom even more and he liked it, always needed my help and guidance or just cuddles or silly bedtime stories. we'd have these little talks where hes acting all childish and i felt so grown up being in charge. we were both careful not to go too far, but one night he got super drunk at a party and i had to take care of him like a parent would, it was the weirdest mix of sexy and normal at the same time. i ended up spending weeks just watching over him while hed be sick or hungover, making sure hes eating and sleeping right. everyone thought we were just roommates or something but honestly i felt closer than that, even though he never saw me as anything other than his little boy. sometimes when we'd fool around in bed it would feel like real parent kid stuff but then itd be gone the next day. looking back now its hard to know how much of those times was pretend and how much was us actually feeling something deeper that neither of us wanted to name.