a surprising secret

so yeah i just found out this like thing about myself and im not sure if its weird or amazing. been in a relationship for almost 2 years now with this guy hes always super supportive but one day we were talking about kinks and stuff and i kinda blurted it out i have this thing where sometimes i get this urge to be disciplined by someone like i want them to make me obey orders, you know? i never thought about that until recently. my partner just looked at me all surprised but he said hes down to try anything once its consensual right and we are. so we tried it last night. i got on all fours while he was sitting in a big chair like this strict dad figure and gave him control. it was wild how submissive i became, how much i wanted to please him. he started off with just telling me what to do simple stuff but i loved the way his voice changed when hes in charge, so commanding. then we went further and it got really heated, lots of touching and orders that made my heart race like do this now or else there will be consequences and wow was it hot. felt so submissive but also strangely empowered knowing he trusts me enough to let me play out these fantasies. afterwards we talked about it a lot more than normal kind of shocked at how much i liked it. im still figuring it all out but wanted to share because its new for me too. no idea if this is just a phase or something deeper but felt like i had to tell someone