Confused by My Kinks

I've been in this relationship for five years now and my partner is incredibly supportive of everything I want to explore. But lately, I find myself attracted to a dynamic where I take on the role of a little or need someone to take care of me. It's not that I'm a baby or trying to be childish; it's more about this overwhelming sense of vulnerability and trust. When we play out these scenarios, there’s an intimacy that goes beyond what regular sex can offer, but I keep asking myself why? Why do I feel so connected when I act in ways that contradict my normal adult persona? It's confusing, to say the least.