Just Admitting It to Myself

So, I’ve been grappling with this weird little kink recently. You know how it is, one day you’re just chill and the next you can’t get a certain thought out of your head. For me, it’s this idea of being told what to do in a playful but firm way. I guess it’s not exactly vanilla stuff, but hey, nobody said life was supposed to be vanilla, right? Lately, I’ve been indulging in some age-play fantasies too, pretending to be younger or just starting out. It’s pretty silly when you think about it, I’m well into my twenties, but there’s something exciting about feeling like a new beginner, getting guidance and advice from someone more experienced. It’s all happening in my head for now, though. Just writing this makes me feel less alone with these thoughts. Maybe someday I’ll find the courage to try them out with another person, but right now, it’s enough to just acknowledge that this is a thing inside of me.