..Shy Admissions..

We started this thing last month, experimenting with something very intimate. He's so much older than me... in his forties, and I'm still trying to find my way. We play out scenarios where he acts as the authority figure, disciplining me if I don't meet certain expectations or rules we set. It feels strange but exciting, like I am younger and have to follow all these silly commands. There's this moment when we're alone together and everything else just fades away... except for the fear that it’s not okay. Is what we’re doing weird? Should I stop? Can anyone help me understand if this is normal?