just stuff that happens

so yeah im this trans guy and i like to play both sides sometimes. when i feel little it can be kinda intense but also comforting in a weird way you know? been doing it with my partner for about two years now, hes really good at the caregiver role though he wasnt always into it. we started off super light with just letting me wear cute clothes and stuff but then over time we got more into it. one night i had this massive meltdown in the middle of the store, i dont even know what triggered it, something small probably, but i just lost it man. my partner looked so worried but he held it together for both of us which was really sweet. afterwards i felt like a complete mess but also grateful because he helped me through it without judging or getting angry. that's when i knew we could take our play to the next level. now hes even more strict about certain things but its not harsh, just firm and protective. its weird how much i trust him in this role, even if it doesnt make sense from a logical standpoint. so yeah, just wanted to write this down as kinda of an update on where we are with our dynamic. hope someone else finds some comfort knowing theyre not alone in these feelings.