I'm So Lost

I just got out of a serious relationship and I don't know what to do with myself. We had this really strict dynamic, but it wasn't my role that's bothering me. It was his. He used to be the daddy in our setup, but he was never like that outside of it. Now, I'm finding it hard to switch roles on my own and feel lost without him setting boundaries or rules for us to follow. Tonight, after having a few drinks with friends, one thing led to another and before I knew it, I was crying out