Lost Myself for Him

Got divorced last year, custody issues tore us apart. Been a full-time caregiver since then. Met this man, older than me, online. We clicked over mutual interests and our life situations. One day he suggested trying a care dynamic, like taking care of him as my own Dad figure, but not romantic or sexual at first. It felt weird but comforting. Then one night after too much wine, things changed. Our boundaries blurred and it happened. Since then, we've kept it casual, more about emotional support than physical touch, though sometimes I crave the intimacy again. It's confusing, healing in a way.