exploring my kink

so i'm this mom kinda thing but recently started playing mommy w a grown man friend, we call him baby. it's all consensual and super weirdly hot like when he acts really submissive or childish. i got into the role bcause i found out how much control and power i have over him in this space. i mean i've always been dominant but now it feels more specific. i wanna figure out if there's something deeper here, like maybe why im so turned on by making these decisions for someone else