A Secret I Carry Alone

I can hardly admit this even now, weeks after it happened. It was just a normal day at work, training clients and making sure everyone was hydrated in the heat. Then, she came into my office. She's one of my long-term clients, someone I've grown close to over months of sessions. We started chatting about her life outside the gym, and something must have clicked because before we knew it, we were talking about fantasies and roleplay scenarios. It was like everything in that moment just made sense between us. And then she mentioned this...this dynamic she's always wanted but never found someone for. She said she needed a caregiver who could take charge of her life, someone to look after her every need. The idea caught me off guard at first, but there was something about how vulnerable and sincere she looked when she spoke that made it impossible to say no right then. It's been eating away at me ever since because I'm not sure where this leaves us as friends or clients anymore. She seems happy with the way things are going, but deep down I know we're both blurring boundaries here and that scares me a bit. Still, something about the trust she placed in me to be there for her has made it hard to push back against any of it. But maybe this is just all in my head? Maybe nothing needs to change as long as no one says anything explicitly or acts on these feelings beyond what we've shared so far. It's like trying to convince myself I can have my cake and eat it too, isn't it?