A Moment of Weakness

I've been married for nearly two decades and have always thought of myself as a responsible Mommy figure in our household. But last month, during an argument over my husband's infidelity, I found myself drawn to the submissive aspect he'd hinted at but never explored together. In a moment of frustration and perhaps curiosity, we ended up roleplaying something that felt like a significant step beyond our usual boundaries. It was brief, it was intense, and afterwards, there were tears. I feel ashamed admitting this, worried about how it might change my perception of myself and our marriage.