Hidden Desire

I never thought I'd admit this to anyone. It's just been something I've noticed lately, this urge to be disciplined by someone older and wiser than me. At first, it was just thoughts in the quiet of my night shift at work, but then I found myself daydreaming about it more often. The idea that someone would set boundaries for me, guide me like a younger person needing direction... It's scary and exciting all at once. What does this mean? How can something so grown-up feel so childish inside my head?