Just Another Day at the Kink Circus

So yeah, I had one of those days where it felt like nothing was going right. Work was a nightmare, my roommate ate all the leftover pizza (seriously, what's up with that?), and then to top it off, I couldn't get this stupid kink thing out of my head all day long. Tried watching some mundane movies but they just made me think about... well, you know. Silly things like if I should try role-playing with someone or just let it be an internal thing. Then, in the middle of this existential crisis, I ran into a friend who's kinda into all that stuff too. We exchanged some looks and small talk, but I could see it in his eyes, same boat. He mentioned trying out these online groups for advice or just to commiserate with others going through similar stuff. So here I am, not really sure if I should go down this rabbit hole fully or keep it more as a private hobby. Like, how do you balance wanting to explore and being terrified of messing up? Plus, I have no idea what's 'normal' even in the kink community, right? Sometimes, reading about other people's experiences helps me feel less alone. Am I just overthinking everything here or is there more substance to this anxiety?