In My Closet...

I just figured out I have a DDLG kink. It feels so strange, like it's this secret thing that lives in the dark corners of my closet when no one is looking. A few weeks ago, I found myself drawn to online stories and videos about adult playacting scenarios, and it made me feel... alive, but also scared. The idea of someone else being in charge of me feels freeing, yet terrifying at the same time. What if everyone thinks this is just a phase? Is it normal for adults to feel like this? Am I alone in thinking these things...?