Just Found Out About This Side of Me

I just got through with a messy divorce and I'm still trying to figure everything out. Lately, I've been feeling this weird pull towards something I never knew about myself until recently, DL/DG dynamics. It's crazy how it hit me out of nowhere. My ex-wife used to think all my kinks were a joke, but now she doesn't matter anymore. Last night, I had a fantasy where someone older would be in charge, and I got so turned on thinking about giving up control that way... I never expected this. It feels both scary and exciting. No one knows yet, not even me fully.