it was intense

so i have this thing going on with my grad school advisor, who's like twenty years older than me. it started kinda slow with us just talking late at night over coffee and he would always tell me how much i meant to him. one night we both had too much wine and ended up falling into these intense moments where there was no doubt about the connection. he started taking on a role as my caregiver, not really daddy but something close to that - more like an older brother turned protector. it made everything feel so safe yet wild at the same time. last weekend we finally went all in with our physical relationship and it was this explosive mix of passion and responsibility. i felt both protected and seen in a way no one ever has before. just confessing here how much i've been questioning my own boundaries lately with him, but always coming back to wanting more.