daddy's little secret

ok so i gotta admit something that might sound a bit silly but it keeps bugging me. for the last few months i've been playing around with this guy online, like daddy/kiddo stuff ya know? we're both in our 50s and he’s about ten years older than me but man does it ever feel weird to be on that side of things sometimes. i mean yeah i got a lot of kinks and have fun with the roleplay and all but there's times when i'm so into it i forget my age or his, which is super messed up. like yesterday we were talking and he called me “sweetheart” and for one split second i thought maybe he meant something else besides just being playful...which made me feel kinda silly since that’s never gonna happen in real life. then i remembered how much i enjoy the dynamic as it is, even if it does make me feel a bit like i'm back in the playground when i was younger and got into trouble for pulling pranks on other kids! still, every time something unexpected happens, i get this rush of excitement mixed with nervousness and i love that part. i think what worries me most is how easy it is to forget myself while we're playing and just be there as a kid again. but hey, maybe being 50 doesn't mean you can't have some fun pretending to be younger every now and then? and if it helps, at least he's always super respectful and reminds me of our boundaries so i never feel uncomfortable.