Shameful Secret

I'm so ashamed of what I did tonight. I went over to my friend's house for a party and started drinking way too much. Out of nowhere, I found myself telling him about this kink I've been keeping hidden, the idea of being in a DDLG relationship where someone takes charge and disciplines me if I mess up. I couldn't believe it was coming out of my mouth like that. He just stared at me, probably thinking I'm crazy. But there's something strangely appealing about submitting to someone like that, even if it feels so wrong. It's hard admitting this stuff, but now it's stuck in my head and won't go away.