A Secret Temptation

I've been married for over twenty years now and we have a good life together. I love my wife deeply but there's this secret part of me that sometimes feels like it could never be satisfied with just her. It started about five years ago when I met someone online, a younger man who turned out to be into DDLG stuff. We talked a lot at first, exchanged messages filled with fantasies and desires neither of us would ever act on, or so we thought. One night, after too much wine and way too many late-night texts, it all got to be too much. I found myself sneaking off to his place for the night, just to feel that power dynamic briefly escape into reality. We never crossed any real lines, but still...it's hard to look at my marriage the same since.