Lost in Desire

I'm a grad-school dropout struggling to figure out my place in the world. Recently, I started exploring DDLG dynamics as a little for a dominant who's older and wiser. It feels incredibly intimate, yet daunting at times. During our sessions, we delve into deep physical contact that leaves me both exhilarated and drained. It’s hard to describe how it makes me feel, like parts of my adult self slip away in exchange for the security and guidance I crave from him. Is this normal? How do others manage the emotional intensity while maintaining their independence outside these sessions? Any advice would be deeply appreciated.