barely admitting it

daddy here been holding back on something big for a while now and i dont know why it feels so hard to just let go and be honest about it but my girl really likes the idea of being disciplined sometimes and yeah its kind of exciting how she responds when i put her over my knee or give her a timeout but also like oh my god this sounds ridiculous even typing it out cuz im 35 you know shouldnt i have grown outta this by now right? but hey if we both enjoy it why not let myself be more open about it and yeah so there thats the confession part i guess