just realized

like i was feeling so lost after the divorce and just needed to get out of my head for a bit. then one day i meet this person who's all into little stuff and im like why not right? its been this crazy ride but it actually feels good you know? like finding a new part of myself that i didnt even know existed. anyways we did all sorts of fun things, dressing up and such, and it just felt so freeing. and yes the physical side was pretty intense too but i dont need to get into details here. its more about how it made me feel inside, this sense of rediscovering my own desires without worrying what others think. yeah im still figuring out where all this is going but for now its just nice to have something that makes me smile and feel young again.