Feeling Lost and Afraid of My Desires

I'm a college student, still figuring out who I am. Recently, I started exploring the world of DDLG with someone I care about deeply. We began as friends but now we're in this dynamic where they take on a parental role for me. It feels both comforting and terrifying at times. I worry that what we're doing is wrong or unhealthy because it's so intense, there are moments when I feel like I'm regressing to a point of needing guidance and protection from an older, wiser figure in my life. We do this consensually and it makes me happy, but the fear lingers. I struggle with this duality: wanting to be seen as independent while also craving this kind of nurturing environment. It's confusing. Is what we're doing normal? Do others experience similar feelings when they explore DDLG dynamics in their relationships? I feel like an outsider sometimes because it feels so personal and private. Please, if anyone out there has some advice or can relate to my situation, let me know. Your insight would mean a lot.