...Exploring My Desires...

I've always been the one in control, making decisions for both of us in our relationship. But lately, I've found myself drawn to this idea of surrendering my authority in certain situations. It started when he suggested we try out a Daddy/Mommy dynamic and I surprisingly agreed... The thought of submitting to him, calling him 'Daddy', and letting him take care of me like I was his little girl... It's strange how it turns me on... There’s this sense of comfort in being babied again, letting someone else handle everything from choosing my clothes for the day to deciding what snacks we should have. But there’s also a part of me that wonders if I’m just doing this as an act of rebellion against myself, you know? Like maybe I want to feel vulnerable and be taken care of because it's so different from how I usually am... When we play, he treats me like the youngest version of myself, demanding, whimsical, and completely dependent on him. He’s strict with my punishments too... And it’s not just about him being rough or dominant; there are moments when his discipline is incredibly intimate and leaves me feeling raw and exposed... I love it, but sometimes I worry that something inside me isn’t right if I enjoy this so much... Am I breaking some kind of code here? Or am I just exploring a side of myself that needed to be let out for the sake of our relationship’s growth... What do you think? Is there anything unhealthy about this setup or am I just diving into another layer of who I really am?