i did something i never thought about

so like last week i was studying at home and feeling really stressed out. my boyfriend saw how upset i was and wanted to help but i didn't know what to say. then he asked if there was anything else going on and i just blurted out that this new kink stuff had been in my head a lot lately. i told him about the ddlg thing i've read online, not even sure how it got there really. we ended up trying it out and it was... intense. he was super understanding but i felt so ashamed talking about it with him. now every time we do it i feel like such a fraud. law school is hard enough without adding this to the mix.