Understanding My Kink as a Little

I'm a barista by day and a little at heart. Being in charge of pouring hot coffee into cups every hour can get monotonous, so when I enter my playroom after work, it's like stepping into another world entirely. There's this sense of being completely cared for, which is something that seems out of reach in the real world, or at least, more than just a barista should be getting from grown-ups. The dynamics feel right; there’s an unspoken trust and safety in my space with him, though sometimes I worry it might be too much of a role to maintain outside these walls. For instance, recently we engaged in some intense physical discipline play, spanking, that left marks on my backside. It was painful yet oddly cathartic. Afterwards, I found myself lingering over the sensation for days, and there’s something deeply satisfying about being treated like I need someone to guide me back when I stray off course. But is this normal? Does everyone who plays into a little role feel this way? Or am I just complicating things by analyzing it too much? I’m honestly torn, does anyone else spend so much time pondering why they enjoy being in such an intimate and submissive dynamic, or is that just me questioning my sanity?